Gilbert Nightray (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
interchained) wrote2016-03-03 07:19 pm
interchained) wrote2016-03-03 07:19 pm
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That's...good to hear, I guess.
[He can't even be as grumpy when Jirou's like that.]
The thing is that I'm not even sure what will I do after if I drink too much.
[Usually he'd probably be angry, but now he can't tell.]
[He can't even be as grumpy when Jirou's like that.]
The thing is that I'm not even sure what will I do after if I drink too much.
[Usually he'd probably be angry, but now he can't tell.]
That's not it.
[He's not even surprised that Jiroutachi didn't understand.]
It's not about what you would do. I know you wouldn't do a thing. It's about...what I would do.
[Shortly after, Gilbert bites his lip and looks away. Being honest under such circumstances is so embarrassing to him...]
[He's not even surprised that Jiroutachi didn't understand.]
It's not about what you would do. I know you wouldn't do a thing. It's about...what I would do.
[Shortly after, Gilbert bites his lip and looks away. Being honest under such circumstances is so embarrassing to him...]
[Pandas aren't really his cup of tea, but the poem...it spoke to him on a higher level.
That's why he did this. Also, after giving it a thought, he comes up with the conclusion that it might be Noel's. While he has no idea about her talent (BECAUSE THIS IS A TALENT, EXCUSE YOU...HE'S GOING TO FIGHT ANYONE WHO DISAGREES), isn't her carrier a panda...?
That's some great detective work.]
That's why he did this. Also, after giving it a thought, he comes up with the conclusion that it might be Noel's. While he has no idea about her talent (BECAUSE THIS IS A TALENT, EXCUSE YOU...HE'S GOING TO FIGHT ANYONE WHO DISAGREES), isn't her carrier a panda...?
That's some great detective work.]
[The reply doesn't arrive immediately as Gilbert needs some time to reread the letter he received from Caren a few times and to think of an appropriate answer.
Maybe not just some time. But it's finally here.]
Caren,
I will never share the contents of that letter, as I am aware of the wrath I would bring upon myself. I suppose writing is much easier for me, I would not even dare to say such a thing, would I?
Honestly, I had no idea you were so concerned about your behavior. Or about my, well, nervousness. If I may...this is what I would call endearing. Moreover, I would like to assure you that despite my usual behavior (which, I admit, maybe a bit misleading), I do enjoy spending time with you. Do not hesitate to tell me I am a weird man after reading this, but after so many years it is quite refreshing to have conversations like ours. Many years of what, you may ask? Years of solitude. I is been a hundred years since I've seen my master. It is not only that, but I do not want this letter to be too depressing. I will tell you more in person, someday.
I would like to learn more about you as well. To think of it, I really do not know much. Of course, you are not obliged to tell me everything, not everyone can afford to be completely honest and I understand that quite well. Whether you decide not to, this does not change anything—my offer to be of your assistance still remains available.
Please, there is absolutely no need to give me anything. And I will pretend that I did not see those few last sentences.
Gilbert
PS. Believe it or not, I am smiling now. That would mean you succeeded.
Maybe not just some time. But it's finally here.]
Caren,
I will never share the contents of that letter, as I am aware of the wrath I would bring upon myself. I suppose writing is much easier for me, I would not even dare to say such a thing, would I?
Honestly, I had no idea you were so concerned about your behavior. Or about my, well, nervousness. If I may...this is what I would call endearing. Moreover, I would like to assure you that despite my usual behavior (which, I admit, maybe a bit misleading), I do enjoy spending time with you. Do not hesitate to tell me I am a weird man after reading this, but after so many years it is quite refreshing to have conversations like ours. Many years of what, you may ask? Years of solitude. I is been a hundred years since I've seen my master. It is not only that, but I do not want this letter to be too depressing. I will tell you more in person, someday.
I would like to learn more about you as well. To think of it, I really do not know much. Of course, you are not obliged to tell me everything, not everyone can afford to be completely honest and I understand that quite well. Whether you decide not to, this does not change anything—my offer to be of your assistance still remains available.
Please, there is absolutely no need to give me anything. And I will pretend that I did not see those few last sentences.
Gilbert
PS. Believe it or not, I am smiling now. That would mean you succeeded.
Dear Gilbert,
I'm glad you are finding more use out of it than I. I was almost worried you would not find it.
I am adapting. War is not unfamiliar to me, though I am used to a great range of ability. Still, if we were brought here for any reason it was certainly our ability to support one another. I did not worry about the trust I have placed in my comrades.
I'm glad you are doing better since the dungeon.
I hope you remain well,
Syrlya
I'm glad you are finding more use out of it than I. I was almost worried you would not find it.
I am adapting. War is not unfamiliar to me, though I am used to a great range of ability. Still, if we were brought here for any reason it was certainly our ability to support one another. I did not worry about the trust I have placed in my comrades.
I'm glad you are doing better since the dungeon.
I hope you remain well,
Syrlya
...
[What if he didn't want a chance to explain. Because it's exactly the case, but now he can't change the subject just like that.]
That's the problem...I don't know.
[Gilbert slowly raises his hand to take some strands of Jirou's and comb them delicately with his fingers. How long it'll take Jirou to break all the walls he built in order to make sure he won't become close to anybody here...most of them are already gone anyway.]
Nothing too bad, I hope. A kiss here and there, maybe...
[What if he didn't want a chance to explain. Because it's exactly the case, but now he can't change the subject just like that.]
That's the problem...I don't know.
[Gilbert slowly raises his hand to take some strands of Jirou's and comb them delicately with his fingers. How long it'll take Jirou to break all the walls he built in order to make sure he won't become close to anybody here...most of them are already gone anyway.]
Nothing too bad, I hope. A kiss here and there, maybe...
Gi-chan. I wouldn't let you do anything bad. Besides, one or two kisses isn't going to get you drunk if it involves sharing sake. Especially if it's in my mouth first.
[He tilts his head a little so more of his head falls onto Gilbert's hand. He's definitely going to encourage touching of the silky strands. In fact, he quite loves it.]
But if you don't want to do that we can just kiss with no drinks. Or sit and talk. I like that too. Especially now that you're playing with my hair.
[He tilts his head a little so more of his head falls onto Gilbert's hand. He's definitely going to encourage touching of the silky strands. In fact, he quite loves it.]
But if you don't want to do that we can just kiss with no drinks. Or sit and talk. I like that too. Especially now that you're playing with my hair.
What the fuck, why are you so considerate now.
[He doesn't even sound angry, just amused. Also, if Jirou enjoys it that much, he's not going to stop anytime soon. Focusing on his fingers that run through the silky strands, Gilbert continues:]
I can't believe it. You invaded my personal space so many times...
[Of course Gilbert realizes this situation is different, but he can barely hold back his laugh.]
So many times that I even started to like it...
[He doesn't even sound angry, just amused. Also, if Jirou enjoys it that much, he's not going to stop anytime soon. Focusing on his fingers that run through the silky strands, Gilbert continues:]
I can't believe it. You invaded my personal space so many times...
[Of course Gilbert realizes this situation is different, but he can barely hold back his laugh.]
So many times that I even started to like it...
I know.
[Not only Gil knows about it, he really appreciates it, too. It was Jirou who waited for him patiently, without pushing him to come to a decision.
The moment Jirou rests his head on his lap, Gilbert feels a jolt running up his spine. It's something he hasn't felt in a long time, but the sensation only makes his lips quirk up in a smile.]
I realized I missed it...just a little.
[Obviously not just a little.]
[Not only Gil knows about it, he really appreciates it, too. It was Jirou who waited for him patiently, without pushing him to come to a decision.
The moment Jirou rests his head on his lap, Gilbert feels a jolt running up his spine. It's something he hasn't felt in a long time, but the sensation only makes his lips quirk up in a smile.]
I realized I missed it...just a little.
[Obviously not just a little.]
Your hair is so soft...
[That's one smooth subject change...except it isn't?! Even Gilbert realizes it.]
A lot. There, I said it. A lot...so I guess now we have some catching up to do.
[That's one smooth subject change...except it isn't?! Even Gilbert realizes it.]
A lot. There, I said it. A lot...so I guess now we have some catching up to do.
[He giggles and catches Gil's other hand that isn't petting him to bring it to his lips. Kissing the palm of his hand, he looks up at him.]
I like when you say things like that. It feels good to be wanted.
[He can do a lot to make himself seem human but he just can't shut off that need to be wanted by someone. It's just part of his purpose.]
I like when you say things like that. It feels good to be wanted.
[He can do a lot to make himself seem human but he just can't shut off that need to be wanted by someone. It's just part of his purpose.]
[In response, Gilbert closes his eyes, trying to regain his composure. It's pointless, but he needs to at least collect his thoughts. It's not often when Jirou says such things, after all.]
It does.
[While they're sitting like this, Gil couldn't bend forward and simply kiss him, but he could do something else, and, at the same time, easier. Just a while after telling Jirou that, he slowly lifts the hand in which he's holding a silky strand and kisses it gently.]
Just admit that you like to see me struggle...
[Gilbert grumbles, but a ghost of a smile tugs on his lips.]
It does.
[While they're sitting like this, Gil couldn't bend forward and simply kiss him, but he could do something else, and, at the same time, easier. Just a while after telling Jirou that, he slowly lifts the hand in which he's holding a silky strand and kisses it gently.]
Just admit that you like to see me struggle...
[Gilbert grumbles, but a ghost of a smile tugs on his lips.]
Only if you admit that it feels good when you can open up about what you're feeling to me.
[He can tell that it helps lift weights off of Gil's shoulders to be able to confess these things to him. It's why Jirou loves to keep poking at him. That and Gil's reactions are always extremely adorable. There is that.]
I should let you brush and comb my hair for me since you seem to love it so much.
[He can tell that it helps lift weights off of Gil's shoulders to be able to confess these things to him. It's why Jirou loves to keep poking at him. That and Gil's reactions are always extremely adorable. There is that.]
I should let you brush and comb my hair for me since you seem to love it so much.
Messing with me even now...
[He'd let out an amused laugh, but in the end, Gilbert just smiles to himself.]
But it does feel good. Once in a while.
[That second sentence wasn't really necessary, but he's too flustered and just had to add it. And Jiroutachi pointing out how much he likes with his hair doesn't help with the blush that spreads over Gilbert's cheeks.]
Maybe you should...I wouldn't mind that. That and...other things. A-Anything you'd like.
[Is he going to regret this? Who knows...]
[He'd let out an amused laugh, but in the end, Gilbert just smiles to himself.]
But it does feel good. Once in a while.
[That second sentence wasn't really necessary, but he's too flustered and just had to add it. And Jiroutachi pointing out how much he likes with his hair doesn't help with the blush that spreads over Gilbert's cheeks.]
Maybe you should...I wouldn't mind that. That and...other things. A-Anything you'd like.
[Is he going to regret this? Who knows...]
[He laughs then sits up long enough to grab a brush for him. This he hands to him before spreading out again, happily looking up at him and playing with a strand of Gilbert's hair that is hanging down.]
Am I the first person you've ever courted, Gi-chan?
[He has a feeling the answer is yes and that's precious.]
Am I the first person you've ever courted, Gi-chan?
[He has a feeling the answer is yes and that's precious.]
[Jirou and that intuition of his scare Gilbert from time to time. How could he tell!?]
You are.
[He feels like answering this wasn't really necessary as Jirou probably knew that already. Now, he's looking at the brush in his hand, but puts it away after a little while.]
I prefer doing it this way...
[Combing Jirou's hair with his fingers aren't going to get them anywhere, but he'll do it properly later.]
I'm a bit lost because of that.
You are.
[He feels like answering this wasn't really necessary as Jirou probably knew that already. Now, he's looking at the brush in his hand, but puts it away after a little while.]
I prefer doing it this way...
[Combing Jirou's hair with his fingers aren't going to get them anywhere, but he'll do it properly later.]
I'm a bit lost because of that.
Did you know I'm not actually that experienced with things either?
[He laughs softly then closes his eyes and rolls over so his face can press against Gil's stomach. His arm wraps around him too and his words are a little muffled when he speaks this time.]
I have watched things take place so I know how things are done but I've little practice in them myself.
[He laughs softly then closes his eyes and rolls over so his face can press against Gil's stomach. His arm wraps around him too and his words are a little muffled when he speaks this time.]
I have watched things take place so I know how things are done but I've little practice in them myself.
I wouldn't be able to tell, really.
[With Jiroutachi so close to him, something warm starts to stir in his chest. There's something endearing in the way he speaks.]
I suppose we're old enough to get some practice.
[This is his attempt at a joke.]
[With Jiroutachi so close to him, something warm starts to stir in his chest. There's something endearing in the way he speaks.]
I suppose we're old enough to get some practice.
[This is his attempt at a joke.]
Right..
[Getting any practice here would be a challenge, really. They could always rearrange the room a bit, but...Gilbert's gaze lays on the empty bed which was Shinoa's bed not that long ago and he lets out a sigh.]
Let's get one sometime soon.
[Getting any practice here would be a challenge, really. They could always rearrange the room a bit, but...Gilbert's gaze lays on the empty bed which was Shinoa's bed not that long ago and he lets out a sigh.]
Let's get one sometime soon.
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